| Location | Nottingham |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 4/2007 |
| Date of Death | 4/2007 |
| Visitors | 2,989 since 15/01/2008 |
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On sunday 1st April 2007 I was 23 weeks pregnant with a much wanted little man, who i'd nicknamed Peanut as he looked just like a monkey nut on my scans and I didn't really want Kyle to be called Monkey. I was living in Mansfield at the time but had been staying with my mum and mamma in Netherfield for the weekend. (thank god). At around 1ish I went to the toilet and noticed I was bleeding, I'd had bellyache all morning but thought that was all it was, Kyle was my first and i'd assumed I couldn't have children. We called an ambulance and my Auntie came with me to Queens Medical Centre as my mum had gone to my sisters that morning. On the ride to the hospital I was getting severe pains but i didn't know it was labour. On arrival I was taken and examined by a doctor who also listened to my babys heartbeat which was thankfully beating so strong yet they told me they were sorry but I was 10cm dialated and there was nothing they could do for me or kyle
I was taken to the delivery suite and my mum and my husband (although we were seperated) turned up. I kept refusing to push cos no way was my little man coming out unless they were going to save him. There was some confusion with my date and the nurses kept saying he was to early, luckly they rang Kings Mill hospital in Mansfield who told them I was a day futher than they thought. Next thing they brought back the incubator and baby doctors and Kyle was born at 15.57 that day weighing 528grams which is 1lb 2oz.
Kyle was taken to the neonatal unit and after a while we all went to see him, he was so tiny yet so perfect. Kyle was on a ventilator with tubes everywhere and he was forever wriggling about. For 2 weeks my little peanut fought on, although we had some terrifying moments inbetween. but we also had some good days and he even had a feeding tube some days so he could get 2mil of my milk every 2 hrs.
Sadly on Sunday 15th April 2007 Kyle could not fight anymore, and was taken off the ventilator and brought to me so I could hold him for the very first time. At 21.30 Kyle went to sleep in my arms. He was just to young and his tiny little body had had enough.
I have since found out that due to treatment i received from Kings Mill Hospital for abnormal smear tests, it has been said that I should have been monitored closelly through my pregancie yet that never happened.
I cant than Queens Medical Centre enough for everything the staff and especially Professor Marlow who did everything he could to help me and my little man!
Heyy
hiyaa kyle...
hope heaven is treating you good.
Miss you so much!
Going to be doing some fundraising soon for a charity that deals with neo natal unit you was on!!! may your spirit still live fresh . It may be 4years kyle but to me it still seems 2minutes ago......
love you lots and forever!!!
Happy 4th birthday
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to kyle
Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday Kyle. Me, mummy, harvey, mammar an big mammar came to see you today :)
Miss you lots baby
Love you so much love Caroline xxx
Hey kyle.
Hey baby hope heavens treatin you well!
Well if you were here it would be your 4th birthday next month.
As an early present type of thing i have had your name tattooed on
my foot aside my star in your rememberance. I miss you so much kyle and wish you were here. I will post a photo soon so you can see it. Your mums fine and as for yuor little brother.. well he's grown so much.
I love you kyle and will see you soon.
Keep shining down on the family baby.
Lots of love and kisses
Caroline
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hey baby!x
hiya kyle.... hope your okay up in heaven. Its been so long now but theres still not a day that goes past u go without a thought. I still see you as a little baby in that incubator but i bet your big strong n healthy in heaven. 4 THIS YEAR!!! Its hard to believe its been this long. Your mum is still the same old person lol. I know she has harvey but i knoe she still misses you like mad. Its hard to look at harvey sometimes cos we never got the chance to see you grow, learn to talk n walk but he is a little angel. Keep smiling over the family kyle cos we could do with a good year :) love and miss you dearly and i will be up soon to see you xxxxxxxx
hiya
hey kyle hope the angels are looking after you :) your little brother is 2 next week. :O everythings just going so fast. miss you so much love you lots lv caroline xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hey baby
Hiya kyle
hope lifes treating you well in heaven.
Miss you like mad.
Your brother... well he's a big boy now walking an talking.
Something you never got the chance to do or us to see.
Theres still never a day the 3 years its been that goes past wher
you dont cross my mind.
Came to see you a few weeks ago with my friend.
Seems the sun is keeping your grave alive baby.
You have new teddys and things up there.
Will be up to see you soon.
Love you lots kyle
Love caroline xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Miss you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Empty arms....
Holding out these empty arms
Cursing my disillusionment
Why did I imagine it could be any other way
that I could have been content, dreams that’s all it was,
Mothers arms are not meant to be empty
I look up at the sky, tears filling my eyes,
Searching the stars trying to find my angel
The brightest star I search for
Finding it the first tear rolls down my cheek
Memories flood back of our short time together
Love totally encasing my heart as I look at that star
I know you are there baby I will never forget
I just can’t come to accept as I look that you are so far
I would have cuddled and loved you kept you safe
Within my arms holding you in a tight embrace
I will search these skies for you each night
But just for now have to leave you in Gods guiding light
Sleep well my baby one day my arms and heart will be full again
As I join you and give you all that was meant to be
Hey baby!!!
Hey kyle hope your okay?
Been up to see you a few times recently :)
Your grave is lookin nice n fresh :)
Miss you so much
Its gettin so close to you being 3 now and thats all i can think about!
Mummy got your card and she loved it :')
Theres not a day that goes past when i dot think about you.
I often try to imagine what you would look and be like if you were
still here but its so hard as you were so little.
Will be up again very soon.
Love you lots like jelly tots
Love caroline xxxxxxxxxxx
Jenny I spoke to Claire for the first time yesterday in a few years and she told me about Kyle and how gorgeous he was and said I could find his tribute here. I just had to say how sorry I am about your loss. but so pleased to here about harvey. hope to meet up again soon. take care Jen
Christine Robinson xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi Peanut, sorry not wrote for a while but i have not got a comp anymore. Just letting you know I still miss and think about you constantly. Promise i will be up soon, lots and lots of love and kisses baby love mummy. x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
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